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[Dec. 24th, 2006|01:30 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | London, UK | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | without you - mariah carey | ] |
why im writing here in stead of my space just coz i dont wanna joney to see it. Cant write in chinese there either, dont wanna my parents/friends to know that... really need to give vent to my thoughts and frustrations through blogging tho
guess i cant maintain this relationship anymore, he's nice, he;s cute, he is so good...but i just cant love him. its not the problem of age, yes he's 5 years younger than me, but hey, i even didnt know hes so young when we being together. hmmm, or maybe, it might be a factor,dunno. i've always been tried to love him, but failed thousands of times, god knows how hard i tried.
actually i shouldnt be in this, maybe i just was so bored, now i just made myself in loads of troubles. i;m the kind of person who falls in love easily and quickly, and also falls out of love easily and quickly..but he isnt. i know he treasure this relationship, loves me so much, it's not like i dont take this relationship seriously, its just not what i wanted.. huuuuu, what i;m talking abt..i'm totally fucked
you got a new gf, it's so cruel i had to know that when i was just surfing. the title of that news made me feel quite unhappy. you mentioned me in the interview, said "XXX(your gf) helped me get over her". wtf..not the 1st time, saw another ex got married in sports news a few months ago...really hate this kind of things, since when you guys became so famous, media need to make news of your marriage/relationship? okok, Z is a celebrity, i admit, but comon,you? why the journalists make news of you? if you are somewhat famous, so am i, shit. it's not like i cant accept you're in new relationships, but i just dont want read those news. when you're getting over someone, you keep reading news of him...
only me, only me being lonely. yes, i do have joney, but...now things are getting hard, i cant be together with him, and i cant leave him. he would get hurt as hell. my dear danish boy doesnt realise i'm not a girl he needed. i could leave without one single word, but thats just not me. fucking frustrated. why i am where i am...miss you so much,baby..why i cant be where you are T_T
what if i said i love you when we were together
what if i wasnt that selfish
what if i didnt say those mean things
....
i know i could never go back to these times we were together T_T |
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| ESWC review |
[Jul. 12th, 2006|10:55 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bradford, UK | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | linkin park/ jay-z - numb/encore | ] |
i'll put it here when i finish it |
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| should i start to make an english blog here? |
[May. 23rd, 2006|01:30 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | lyon, FR | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  for my laptop | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the scientist-coldplay | ] |
I'm thinking about this.
just to record some funny things about esports and imporve my english writing as well.
maybe i'll do this after i buy a new laptop. wtf, my old one's lcd is wearing out! T_T |
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